Wednesday, May 12, 2021

Childhood Notes on Palestine

 Childhood Notes on Palestine

Marvin Ellis Jackmon


Marvin X at the Odell Johnson Theatre, Laney College, Oakland, (his former classroom when he taught English and theatre at Laney, 1981). 

photo Alicia Mayo


It was not enough to be born
May 29, 1944
Just before atom bomb Japan
Then when I was 4
Mom and Dad took us to the drive-in theater
After cowboys killed Indians
Newsreel came on
Dad went to get popcorn
I watched news
Saw all those people fleeing Palestine
Across bridge into Jordan
I didn't understand then.
Don't understand now
Pain of Palestine
I don't understand why Hitler
Killed Jews
don't understand hatred so deep
I wish somebody could help me understand the joy of oppressing another human being
grinding them into dust lampshades 
but before Hitler King Leopold's Congo
Imagine the Ottomans and Armenians 
Hutus and Tutsis 
Boku Haram Taliban
Irish Catholics Protestants
Irag Sunni Shia inhumanity
Remember that song
"How Long has this been going on?"

I don't understand why Jews
Won't share the land
After Hitler how can Jews
Deny humanity of Palestinians anyone
How can you mistreat God's people
Yet you are chosen of God
You crush the oppressed
Yet you were crushed
Your suffering taught you nothing
You are chosen yet blind
In the Holy land
what price ancient myths rituals
When unholiness is your practice
You think carnal weapons will suffice
Are you superior to God
Do you worship God
Are do you suppose God
Worships you?
Dad came with popcorn
We ate
1948
Watched cowboys kill Indians.
Didn't know we was "Indians" too.
--Marvin X
5/12/21


Marvin X at Gaza protest, Seattle WA, 2014

The Black Vendors Association

  


Marvin X, Organizer, BAMBD Black Vendors Association, at his Academy of 
Da Corner,14th and Broadway, Downtown Oakland CA
photo Adam Turner

Board of Directors: Dr. Ayodele Nzinga, James Vorett Copes, Delores Nochi Cooper, 

Adama Oshuntoki Mosley, Ramal Lamar, Tony B. Conscious

I first called for Black vendors on the streets of Oakland during the regime of our first Black 
Mayor Lionel Wilson. That was in the 80s. The situation of Black vendors at Lake Merritt  
is fluid unless a Black Vendors Association is organized to demand economic equity in the city 
North American Africans have made Oakland known throughout the world as The City of 
Resistance with the Pullman Porters Union and the Black Panther Party. Marcus Garvey 
told us long ago the world is moving against all unorganized people. So vendors get organized 
or suffer the consequences of economic strangulation.

In a conversation with brother James Copes, organizer of the Lake Merritt Black Vendors, 
we agreed that Black vendors should ready themselves to take advantage of the 
community benefit agreements the BAMBD CDC has worked out with developers for 
below market rate retail spaces in developments along the 14th Street BAMBD, 
downtown Oakland. If you are a vendor and would like more information about 
the BAMBD Black Vendors Association, please call me: 510-575-7148; email: 
jmarvinx@yahoo.com

James Copes, Lake Merritt Black Vendor organizer, and Oakland City Council member 
Nikki Fortunato Bas address a group of street vendors during a recent town hall meeting.  
James Copes is on the BAMBD Black Vendors Association Board of Directors. He and 
Marvin X agreed the Black Vendors Association must be a first class organization 
with a politically conscious membership able to advocate for economic equity 
as part of the City of Oakland's Downtown Plan for the next 25 to 50 years. 
Photo Credit: Darwin BondGraham

Friday, May 7, 2021

Marvin X on Addiction to White Supremacy Type I and II


In Dr. Nathan Hare's foreword to my manual How to Recover from the Addiction to White Supremacy, he makes a clear distinction between the addiction to white supremacy Type I and II. Type I is the oppressor's addiction, Type II is the oppressed addiction. Thus, the oppressed has little need to discuss Type I but should concern himself/herself with Type II or in the words of Michael Jackson, The Man in the Mirror. 

We don't have time to waste discussing the mental health condition of white people. And white folks have no right to concern themselves with our Type II mental health issues. They have no right to discuss whether one of us is a tom or not, such is a matter for persons suffering Type II psychosis. Persons suffering Type I should occupy themselves with denial, that critical first step in the recovery from any addiction process. No degree of recovery is possible until the addict conquers that most cunning and vile demon called denial. One of my astute students gave us the metaphor of the Nile River and its true name Hapi. Once we come out of De Nile we can be Hapi, i.e., in truth and reality. But for Type II addicts to concern themselves with Type I issues is nonsense and a misdirection of focus, e.g., I want white folks to love me, not continue to kill me. Why do they hate we so much, don't they know I'm a human being too, I bleed red blood just as they do? Can't we all just get along together? Wow, we just marched for Black Lives Matter but they just bought the house I was renting. I'm homeless but they got a Black Lives Matter sign in the window where I used to live. WTF? Such is the trauma of Blacks caught in Type I white supremacy when their sole concern should be their own unique Type II addiction that will most assuredly consume an inordinate amount of their time, probably all if not most of the time they shall have in their ephemeral lives. 


We can see clearly the Type I addicts are adamant in their denial of systemic white supremacy. Yes, to do so may indeed condemn them as devils under the newly declared  "woke" dogma of Critical Race Theory. How ironic that after identifying and treating us as devils, they declare themselves innocent of all and any charges of being diabolical and satanic in their treatment of us down to the present moment, yet the whole world is trying to decipher what was going on in the mental apparatus of Covin as he held his boot on the neck of George Floyd for nine plus minutes, but especially with his hand in his pocket as if he had every right in the world to take the life of George Floyd. He appeared to be lost and turned out in the bottom level hole of white supremacy, yes, in the deep structure of the slave catcher mentality, from which the police evolved. His persona suggested he did not mind killing George Floyd except for the matter of compensating Floyd's master. Of course in the modern era, no compensation is necessary, yes, the neo-slave catchers usually get away with murder under the color of law.

The tragic irony is that in the grand denial of Type I white supremacy addicts, no matter the reality of murder under the color of law seen globally in the video, a great percentage of white identified and sympathized with the pig with is boot of the neck of George Floyd. Type I addicts even agreed with the defense that it was drugs that consumed the life of George Floyd. Yet, the police murder of Blacks continued hours after the pig Covin was found guilty, as if America said, in the best mantra of theatre, "The show must go on."

Is it not clear why Type II addicts shall never recover from our addiction if we focus on the psychosis of Type I addicts who suffer a full blown break with reality. This is why people emailed me about the title of my book How to Recover from the Addiction to White Supremacy, saying it was a misnomer to say white supremacy when it was/is white lunacy. I was informed our ancestors and elders advised we simply, "Leave white folks alone 'cause da just crazy." FYI, when I finished writing my manual in Gullahland, South Carolina, and when to Staples to make copies, the clerk who saw the title, asked, "Where you from?" I replied, "I'm from here." She said, "No you're not." I said,"Why you say I'm not from here?" "Because we don't say white supremacy here, we know it, but we don't say it." Suddenly I discovered the Southern survival etiquette. It became clear to me why a Martin Luther King, Jr. could evolve from the South, not the North, only a Malcolm X and the Black Panther Party could become a phenomena there, although the South had its plethora of "Negroes With Guns" (Robert F. Williams) and Deacons from Defense (See We Will Shoot Back, Akinyele Umoja). So yes, the South simply has a survival etiquette that we Northern Blacks find unacceptable, but in the discussion of the title of my manual, those who commented just happened to be from the South, Florida, for one, as I remember. Still, even with the crazy or insane designation, they were yet in the mental health paradigm.

But let us be clear that when we declare systemic white supremacy, we move from the personal to the institutional and declare all American, alas, European, institutions, and concomitant mythology and rituals are pervasively inundated with white supremacy. Of course this reality is overwhelming to the white psyche because it shatters their sense of reality, that is, of course, a fantasy, a world of make believe. The tragedy is that those addicted to Type II white supremacy have ingested the Kool Aid, a  canning jar full with a oversupply of white sugar visible in the bottom of the jar.

Sadly, the full blown denial of the Type I addicts become most severe with their dual diagnosis, i.e., they deny their personal addiction and the systemic and pervasive toxicity of their institutions with the concomitant myth/rituals, e.g., the holy founding fathers, declarations of all men created equal, democracy and justice for all, equity and economic opportunity, free trade capitalism, freedom of speech. 

In the full blown denial of Type I addicts, the very suggestion of reparations is anathema and the very idea upsets their mental equilibrium, although they compensated Native Americans, Japanese, and their European brothers and sisters compensated the Jews, but the full blown denial of Type I addicts blinds them to the wealth they inherited from 400 years capital accumulation with African labor in the American Slave System (Ed Howard term). Yes, Type I addicts enjoy the wealth of their forefathers but refuse to accept the DNA umbilical cord.  In their perennial and pervasive denial, they accept the gold but don't want to hear the truth of the story told. So along with their denial of the 1619 project and its narrative that is most certainly closer to the truth than the Type I false narrative taught in schools, colleges and universities  to perpetuate the Type I toxicity that is more powerful than fentanyl and all other opioids combined.  

What I am about to say will surely shock Type I and II addicts. You will declare, as many often do, that I dwell in hyperbole supreme, along with being a conspiracy theorist in league with Alex Jones. No matter, I say to you Covid19 is germ warfare concocted by the white supremacists, lead by the Eugenicist Bill Gates, Dr. Fauci and their sycophants in WHO. Who created the virus at the University of Texas and University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill, and transferred it to Wuhan? FYI, the vaccine is another misnomer of white supremacy for if we follow the medical definition of vaccine, the Covid19 vaccine is not a vaccine. Google the medical definition of a vaccine.

Let us briefly discuss Bill Gates, a third generation Eugenicist or depopulationist in the Gates family tradition of white supremacist advocates, associated with the she-devil, black baby killer Margaret Sanger, founder of Planned Parenthood (Oh, wow, Planned Parenthood recently declared they are disassociating themselves from Margaret Sanger; alas, her Eugenics was implemented by Hitler in the extermination of the Jews, yet Hillary Clinton received the Margaret Sanger Award and considers Sanger her Shero). 

We suspect he and Belinda divorced for political rather than personal reasons. His persona has been approaching the status of Satan incarnate and so he and Belinda decided to separate to allow her persona to be the facade of his Globalist intrigues to depopulate the world. Alas, it is a false flag when we are told to follow the money trail. Those who have all the money have naturally transcended money onto other more demonic concerns such as population control. It their demonic minds, over population can be brought under control by bio chemical or germ warfare. In league with WHO and the Chinese (the new boys and girls on the global block, no matter the Type I white suprematist leadership's declarations to continue their world domination, for sure, they are in league with the new boys on the block and are following the Communist Chinese model of population control). The notion or more precisely, the false narrative that China is responsible for Covid19, is but another white supremacist false narrative when in fact (and China has disputed the claim Covid19 originated in Wuhan but in the American labs at the University of Texas, Austin, and University of North Carolina, Chapel Hill, as I have indicated above).

As per those suffering Type II addiction to white supremacy, and in their severe psychosis, have been striking out at Chinese and other Asians, this is known as misplaced aggression in Psychology 101. Such person are simply ignorant of the true origin of Covid19 and that it is a germ warfare bio-weapon of the Globalists. FYI, we must understand China and the globalists, i.e., the billionaire club members, especially, e.g., the capitalists who share 40% of the so-called goods made in China, who manufacture 80% of our medicine (as per insanity, who would allow their avowed enemy to produce their medicine? 

Alas, as per Type II addicts and our insanity, who would allow their children to be educated by their avowed enemy as those of us suffering Type II do when we send our children to white supremacist public schools? As our Ancestor Amiri Baraka noted, "We send them to colleges and universities and they come home hating us and everything we're about, except they don't even know what we're about!").

In light of all the above, I say to those of us suffering Type II, do everything you can to stay mentally and physically healthy, though I understand the need to medicate our toxicity of trauma and unresolved grief. So I do the best I can in my laziness and sloth, so I suggest you do the same. As the brothers told me when I entered the gates of Terminal Island Federal Prison as a draft resister to the war in Vietnam, "Don't get sick, brother. They got a graveyard full of niggas who got sick, so don't get sick up in here." 
--Marvin X
5/7/21

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Saturday, May 1, 2021

Parable of a weak-ass nigga

 Parable of a Weak-ass Nigga



Marvin X at the University of Chicago, 2015
photo Burrell Sunrise 



At my Academy of Da Corner, 14th and Broadway, downtown Oakland, I used to hear many things, not only from people who spoke directly to me as I sold my books and made myself accessible to all Oakland's citizens, which meant I sometimes served as grief counselor, marriage and partner relations advisor. Often people would line up at my stand to seek advice and wisdom. Understand, I did not advertise myself as counselor, only as a writer. Still, people apparently noticed discussions at my stand and I suppose they surmised they could bring their problems to me, especially since there appeared no other persons they could find accessible to speak with and share their suffering. As we know, the few persons lucky enough to have a therapist who is available ten minutes per month to unravel the conundrums of their lives.  At my Academy of Da Corner, people sometimes got up in my face eye-ball to eye-ball to make sure I had their full attention. They were not joking, alas, they were desperate to be heard by someone, anyone, so I was the one. And I not only gave them free advice but allowed them to spend hours sitting with me, although the consensus was an hour was more than enough time to entertain my "different point of view" that was "brutally honest" and "very blunt!" 
 
 But what amused me was not hearing the testimonies of those who spoke to me directly, rather hearing those who came to 14th and Broadway and discussed loudly on their cell phones the trauma of their lives. Yes, 14th and Broadway is the crossroads of Oakland,  so it is Legba's "yard office" (borrowing a term from where I worked while an inmate at Terminal Island Federal Prison after I endured two self-imposed exiles in Canada, Mexico City and Belize, from which I was deported back to my beautiful homeland of the USA). 

One day I heard a young lady taking on her cell across the street from me by Chase Bank. She told somebody, "I hate a weak-ass nigga. Shit, I'm the baby daddy, he the baby mama. I leave the baby with him and I bounce! I hate a weak-ass niggah! Girl, I done told dat nigga to come at me proper with his shit together, yeah, come at me correct or leave me the fuck alone. I can do good by my motherfuckin' self. Yeah, dat's what I told dat bitch ass nigga!"
--Marvin X
4/30/21
See the coming issue of Outlaw Magazine for a full discussion of partner relations based on Marvin X's magnum opus Mythology of Pussy and Dick. We hope to release this founding issue of Outlaw Magazine by the poet's 77th birthday, May 29, 2021. 

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Parable of Stupid Shit in the Name of Love


Marvin X at San Francisco Ocean Beach at sunset
photo Adam Turner

Parable of Stupid Shit

The world is full of stupid shit. I was taught in Boy Scout's: Be Prepared. The Bible says adorn yourselves with the armor of God and guard against being deceived. Is there any doubt we are living in the most dangerous times in the history of the world? You must strengthen your immune system to the max, plus keep your social distance from the toxic ones, no matter family or friends.  When his family came for him, Jesus denied them, instead said his family was his disciples. In the film Godfather Part II, the theme is how your family will whack you. So much for the stupid shit of families. Go to Probate Court to see how much brothers and sisters love each other after mama and daddy are dearly departed.

So have no patience with stupid shit from stupid ones, family or friends. Alas, what did Bob Marley sing to us, "With my friends I don't need enemies." Best to separate yourself and walk alone. Aristotle said, "He who has many friends has no friends." In jail and prison we are taught to ride your own beef, don't get involved in another inmates problems, although I did make money in prison writing letters to judges for inmates. But I road my own beef until I was appointed Nation of Islam Minister that forced me to care about other brothers although I still had to focus on my own beef or case. A brother with short time can get you involved with his case, alas, have the hold prison population stressed out about his beef because he is stressing and only has a short time before he is released. Why should you be diverted about his stupid shit when another brother is calmly doing his ten years without stressing anyone, especially not the entire prison population.

A military man told me to walk alone so no one can betray you except yourself. In his office, he pointed to pictures of him with VIPs and asked me what did I see. Without waiting for my answer, he said, with all those VIPs I am by myself. If I'd had another person with me there would be the possibility they would betray me for personal gain, or jealousy and envy. 

Of course his wisdom contradicts the wisdom of Solomon who said if you are by yourself and fall, who shall lift you up? We love the wisdom of Solomon in Ecclesiastic but he too informed us we may have a child or friend who shall betray us, no matter how much love we shower upon them. In the world of today, we call such children and friends Ungrateful Bastards. Of course, Luke taught us to keep the faith because so-called ungrateful bastards may find their way home as Prodigal Son.

A dear friend persists in proclaiming to me the endgame of  his ungrateful bastard children and mine shall come home in the manner of the Prodigal Son. His proscribes patience, alas, the patience of Job, and prepares the way for the return of his ungrateful sons, daughters and grandchildren. But when they did indeed have reason to return, he did not receive them in the name of love, rather in bitterness for their prolonged absence, especially since he forever desired and awaited their love since he was prepared to give them the same.

He imagined many of them suffered  the toxicity of their mothers who poisoned their children due to the neglect and abandonment of him as father. Yet, many fathers were without fathers themselves so they could not exercise the manhood training they were devoid. "How can I be a father when I have never seen a father who stuck by a mother and children through thick and thin?" And even when a father is present, if he suffers the multitude of negrocities (AB term), there is no guarantee family life and the resulting manhood and womanhood rites shall be successful, producing the next generation of mature adults rather than children with dysfunctional personalities. We recently heard the testimony of a woman whose parents were married 67 years, yet she told of how they had abused each other during her childhood and entire life, yet they were together, which didn't help her when she advanced to womanhood and sought a functional and healthy relationship.  

Sadly, I must cosign with her since I frequently visit my long-term married friends whose interaction does nothing to inspire me to be in a relationship, especially in the fourth quarter of my life when I only want to be creative although it would be nice to have a loving partner as I end my mission on earth. But the observance of my dear friends is perhaps as painful as the woman above who experienced the 67 year marriage of her parents, full of emotional and verbal abuse, thank God she did not mention physical abuse.

Mothers are often forced to teach their children to not rely on a man since it was the reality in her and her children's lives. In a poignant letter to me from my daughter, she said, "Dad, you say you love me, but don't support me. Mama says she loves me and feeds and clothes me, so what is your excuse? Is your love but a word?"

How does one answer a child? Addiction is no excuse. During my addiction to Crack, we saw a billboard on the bus stop that said, "Child abuse is when you won't call your child." How many times, how many years was I guilty of such, stuck in the utter selfishness of my addiction, and even when I had money to send to my children whose mother was struggling to feed, clothe and house them while I sat in a wretched hotel room consumed in smoke that even killed the flies before their death crawling on my funky SRO hotel room floor in the seedy filthy rooms of San Francisco's Tenderloin District from which I am thankful God Almighty blessed me to survive, recover and ultimately reunite with my precious children.

Stupid shit is as stupid does. It takes the same energy to do stupid shit as to do righteous shit, though it may be painful when one attempts to reconnect with children suffering neglect, abuse and lack of love. It may take years for children to recover and reclaim faith in parents, mostly fathers, but it can be achieved because the Joker is that children need parental wisdom their entire lives, so if you missed the first quarter, catch them and support them with your wisdom in the fourth quarter, yes, when you may have nothing left but a Hail Marry pass into the end zone but it will suffice as a touch down in the midlife crisis of their lives. Yes, it may help them transcend stupid shit!
--Marvin X
5/30/21

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