Preview #7, Journal of Pan African Studies, Poetry Issue

Preview #7,
Journal of Pan African Studies
Poetry Issue

Guest Editor, Marvin X

Bruce George,

New York City

I’m in a world

I’m in a world

of concrete and steel

of mace and riots

of endless talk

of endless plots

of prison politics

of taking orders

of giving orders

of recycled dreams

of letters gone unanswered

of funerals unattended

of lock-downs

of beat-downs

of testosterone

of claustrophobia

of anger

of no love

of no hope

of no peace!

I’m in a world

where you look through and not at

where you cry on the inside

where you die on the inside

where you take no prisoners

where you are taken prisoner

where time stands still

where time passes by

where you are forgotten

where you are not forgiven

where you lose your mind

where you lose your soul

yet I’m still a man

yet I’m still human

yet I’m a child of God

yet I’m free!

--Bruce George

Co-founder of Def Poetry Jam.

Amy ”Aimstar” Andrieux, New York City

Birth of aimstar

you left me..

fertilized

with unhatched dreams

full of your broken promises

i wanted to burst

run

hide

sleep for a long time

i even wanted to die

but god, life, and the ancestors wouldn't let me

they had great plans for me

so with bleeding heart & burnt fuses

i cried

in vain

in awe of our deconsumated union

handslapped bruises was all that was left behind

of this fingerpainted we...

and baby fertilized me

so i walked home separated

mind mad

body weak

my heart with you

and exasperated was i

with trying to force myself to meditate

contemplate

tweak the trivialities of us fools

so i could possibly move on without u?

still impregnated

and in 4 months due

spirit began to wrestle

cuz home wanted to make me brand new

whole.

home.

free from hell on some neverending story type shit

hatched unbroken circles

no more cracked eggshells

and finally met myself in the mirror of unattainable miracles

reflecting thoughts of unmet heroes

i ached for you

and i bellowed...

my heart bellowed

and i gave birth

with my hate subdued.

barely aware of my great victory

my tremendous dream unblurred

i arose

fully awake in consciousness

yes, i remembered..

the smells,

the sounds,

the tastes,

the nostalgia overcame me when i gave birth to she

i remembered breathing.

i remembered life.

i remembered me.

And thank you for leaving.

Peace

--aimstar

4/4/02

Having recently left The Source in the summer of 2010, where Amy served as the general manager and executive editor appointed by prominent entertainment attorney and The Source executive publisher L. Londell McMillan, she is currently keeping urban culture alive via her own creative pursuits via AIMSTAR Media (AM), a multi-media and development company she founded in 2004.

Amy was the former managing editor of TRACE Magazine where she spent five years in various capacities. At international lifestyle entity, which housed TRACE TV, and magazines TRACE US, TRACE FRANCE and TRACE UK she oversaw and writing cutting-edge editorial features from fashion, music, travel, lifestyle and politics centered on the global metropolitan tastemaker, for all three editions. At age 26, she became the youngest Publisher in NYC, managing the finance, marketing, and sales departments of the TRACE brand.

As an entertainment journalist, she has interviewed several key figures in the arts including Kobe Bryant, Pharrell Williams, Spike Lee, Snoop Dogg, Outkast, Queen Latifah, T.I., Jesse Jackson, Ice Cube, Jamel Shabazz, Damon Dash, Shepard Fairey, Michael Eric Dyson, Mister Cartoon, Patricia Field, Jonathan Mannion, Raekwon, among others. Her essays have been featured in Transculturalism: How the World is Coming Together (Powerhouse Books, 2003; Ten Years of Trace (Booth Clibborn, 2006); and EyeJammie’s Hip Hop Encyclopedia (MTV

Ramal Lamar, Oakland CA

Ramal Izza Teacha (circa 1994 when I was 15)

i been teachin all my life (RIGHT!)
clear the way my landin zone is at sight.
i been teachin so much i'm like a nuisance,
but its given to you so you can use it,
for the positive, neva eva negative
i'm flyin heads kid, as i freak competitive,
open your ears, so you may listen,
as i teach on the beat with precision.
the mission? for you to be taught,
so knowledge may be given not sought nor fought for-
public storage, stored an informative mental message -
yet all the suckas guessin-
can you question - i think not -
i ink a lot... about topics, let's talk -
now about the fact why you need to be taught -
we illin out now cuz of the weed that he bought
i sought, awareness in self no one else -
so i could come cool with the creepness of a stealth bomber
i'm droppin bombs - words to grandmoms i'll do it-
i'm mindless and only All knew it -

ramal izza teacha - he izza teacha
ramal izza teacha - he'll neva deceive ya

--Ramal Lamar

Ramal Lamar is a master of ceremonies in the hip hop tradition. He also teaches mathematics and philosophy in the Bay Area's Afrikan Community. He is a graduate of San Francisco State University and California State University East Bay. He has written reviews, "Journey to the End of Islam" (Micheal Muhammad Knight) and " We Will Return in the Whirlwind" (Muhammed Ahmed) for Black Bird Press News. He is an associate professor at Marvin X’s Academy of the Corner, Oakland, California. Ramal is currently writing his master’s thesis in mathematical logic to pursue doctoral studies..

Tariq Shabazz, Newark NJ

8th Wonder of the world—Mr. Wonderful.

The next time they talk about the Beat dudes
Lennon and ‘em, Paulie Mac and the rest
Just think about Mr. Wonderful our fully expressed selves
The greatest of all time, in a class by himself
Ya’ll know Mr. wonderful will rift right pass those little Brits
With their ok pen and light weight voices, who do you know with a more poetic pen than S.W.?
Seeing the world, his world and our world better than we could ever see it because he’s from Saturn.
He sees things clearly, not blinded by the ugliness of bullshit disguised as material life.
But rather he’s lead by vibration; he feels everyone’s heartbeat and he’s hip to the devil that doesn’t have a heartbeat.
Another realm—vibrant colors translated into life’s song.
Always on point, always current with the power of the ocean.
That must be the reason they don’t mention him as much as the less competent, less conscience, less relevant the lesser – us.
How can you ignore the author of one of the greatest love songs, AS*!
But AS always they will find a way.
Amiri B. put us on to the fact that our beloved Mike Jack was a decoy—content lacking.
But we still see you Stevie Wonder [full]
And we know you see us, easier than we see you.
Much clearer as we say “you feel us”, on another level.
Your connection is much deeper than ours because we rely too much on our eyes, never truly seeing.
Blind to the true facts and beauty of life preoccupied with the superficial.
We do have other brothers that can blow but just when they think they’re getting close you blow right pass them with your consciousness.
Singing in that key no one can get quite right.
Singing that Song in the key of life.
Master of the lyric, constanly doing battle with the track.

You let it get away (at least that’s what we thought)
Its pass you Stevie!
And in a blink of an eye you catch it—rift, blow, and run right pass it
Slow down for it, rift around it, grab and subdue it.
Damn, you mastered the track too
So remember, the next time they pull the Beatles out, throw Stevie on their ass!
Go Album for Album and Track for Track
And the winner will be…
We love you Mr. Wonderful

--Tariq Shabazz

Born in Newark, NJ raised between Newark and Irvington, NJ. Always loved to write. Three different high schools, no diploma. Gets GED in '98, enlists in the Marine Corps in '99, honorable discharge in '03 as a SGT. After Marine Corps, comes home, falls into the streets. Shot four times in '05. Afterward, realize being a Blackman is better than being a Negro. Start College, gets associates degree. Currently at Montclair State University as a political science major and film minor, graduating in Dec '10. Now--Family, Activism, and School. That's it.

Deadline for submissions, October 15. Send to jmarvinx@yahoo.com. MS word attachment, include bio and pic.

Marvin X,

Guest Editor