How do I feel on the loss of my brother

 Ollie Jackmon, Soldier, Black Liberation Army, American Gulag, aka Department of Corrections

People ask me how I feel
ain't tryin to feel
don't want to feel
deny feel
silence feel
medicate feel
do you feel his vibration in his house
damn right I feel his vibration 
had to leave
vibration too strong
after a lifetime of missing him
together in the end
in 33rd
loved him
said he didn't know love
sister debbie made him know love died in her arms, died in the arms of love
got to know love in the end
what else matters God is Love
my favorite song Nature Boy say,
"The greatest thing
you will ever learn
is to love
and be loved in return...."
--Marvin X
12/29/16

Preface

West Oakland nigguh don't give a fuck
west oakland nigguh
so what bad and good luck
west oakland prescott elementary
lincoln theatre
don't give a fuck
cambell village
pennywell gang
harold campbell
heroes of my youth
ward brothers
alvis billy ray ward
tribal oakland
nigguhs move east
harlem of the west no more
bart station moderism
main post office moderism
where the people made west oakland live
culture business art sports where
negro removal ethnic cleansing gentrification
west oakland closer to sf than sf mayor jerry brown said
witch doctor supreme
brought ten thousand whites colonial children hipsters to occupy oakland
seize west oakland closer the sf than sf
hipsters march black lives matter
buy houses of black lives matter
displace black lives matter
smiling faces first friday black lives matter
occupy oakland black lives matter
displace oakland black lives matter
fire fire fire fire fire
white art matters
hipsters matter
developers matter
Black lives don't matter!
Ax somebody
Better ax somebody Houston TX Negroes say
Better ax 'em!
--Marvin X
12/28/16


I remember 7th Street West Oakland

up and down the street

Jazz

7th and Peralta jazz blues

Lincoln Theatre jazz blues black films news

Lorraine's greasy spoon

hamburger heart attack fries

Pear's Cafe
turkey wings

Perry's Shoe Shine
dad got us ready for shined shoes church rounds  
Church of God in Christ Holy Ghost Sinners Temple
St. John's Baptist on Market Street
Down's Memorial where dad membered
Rev. Cecil Williams tenured on the way to Glide

Moon's Records

Scott's Keys

John Singer's

Pullman Porters Union Hall

Slim Jenkins with Josephine Baker Earl Father Hines

Esther's Orbit Room

BARN funky buffet

Pine Street ho stroll

16th Street AMTRAK station
tell ho i'm writer
you ain't no writer nigguh

Ho Hotel by hour

Army  base

Naval Supply Center

7th Street

Bumper to bumper cars

bumper to bumper nigguh weekends

7th and Campbell Jackmon's Florist

Granny in window

watch nigguh weekends

fascinated by street nigguh love

soldiers sailors nigguhs fightin stabbing killing

club let out pussy time

hammond b3 organ  jazz pussy

jimmy smith pussy

hammond b 3 jammin up down 7th

Arthur Prysock Man Ain't Supposed to Cry'
name of my first autobiography at 18
nigguh ain't lived writin autography
nigguh please
get a life then write autobiography

II

my life was music

musicians in theatre

dancing through the aisles

Donald Garrett

Dewey Redman

BJ

Monte Waters

Earle Davis

wailing jazz blues black classical sounds

harmonizing Fillmore Street rhythms

musicians on street playing car sounds

cars honking call and response

musicians freeing us from freedom

Donald Rafael Garrett bassist leading actors to freedom

jazz is  you

go black actor go

Ed Bullins

LeRoi/Baraka

Marvin X

go

Actor Danny Glover

Papa's Daughter

by Dorothy Ahmad

Danny got ready for Color Purple

same theme same dream

Dewey gave birth to Joshuah

Joshuah transcends daddy sound
son did same to me on tennis court

beat my ass and laughed all the way

no more tennis for me.

like Merritt College basketball team 1962

gave it up driving into hole for layup

tall Mack nigguhs ain't elbowing me

fuck that shit

let me play tennis

beat white boy ass

what nigguhs know bout tennis 1963

throw down racket white boy

tennis nigguhs on the scene

Jazz

where you at Oakland

Slim Jenkins

Jazz

Earl Father Hines jazz

Josephine Baker jazz

jet magazine weekly negro jazz

ebony world of make believe jazz

Pine Street ho stroll jazz

you ain't no writer nigguh ho said jazz

Ho I write I write I write

you want some pussy

good writin ass nigguh

write my story

good writing ass nigguh

write my ho story

suck and fuck story

7th Street 6th grade ho story

write that nigguh

wit yo good writing ass

--Marvin X

12-27-16